I'm new to this, bear w/ me as I endeavor to find my way. For so many years, I've tried to lead a "normal" life, but these bad feelings always seem to return just when I think they're gone. I've tried to keep these dark feelings hidden away in public, especially on the job. I've just started a new job, one that helps people by supplying vital medications to hospitals & pharmacies. I have a tendancy to be a perfectionist, and when things go slightly off scue, I get this black, over whelming sinking in my soul that I'm nothing but a complete failure & that all my efforts to try to be my the best I can is never good enough. I've been praised by my superiors for going above & beyond the call, but I still feel like I've failed. I would appreciate suggestions to my posting.
