Hi everyone. I started this program right around the same time as I got a new job, and a lot of what was so difficult was how much I hated my last job plus the difficulties of not having one, especially after my husband lost his too. So starting the new job made a tremendous difference in my state of mind, & so did starting this program, but I'm definitely not out of the woods yet.
The new job is in a field I really want to be in and had given up on, so I was really glad to get it. It's difficult, though, since there's a lot to learn & not much standardization on how to train a new person. I feel they are happy with me and understand the difficulty, & are doing everything they can to help me learn, but that doesn't stop me from having anxiety about being so often uncertain about how to proceed. They are not the most cheerful bunch either, which surprised me based on what I knew about this company before joining it.
I think we all tend to blame our jobs for our woes since we spend so much time at them, but I was sad before & I'm still sad, & I've been sad for most of my life. Plus being a working mom is hard & we have lots of financial problems & my husband is still looking for work. So there's plenty of reasons, I just... feel sad & chilled.
Thanks for listening.
