Just wondering...does anyone ever feel like they are obsessed with panic? I mean I just feel so overwhelmed by this condition that it is the only thing I think about. I read books on panic, come onto this site and look for other sites (though this ones the best I've come across), I think about it, analyze it, and on and on and on... I have OCD, have for years and it has come back to me in various forms. Could it be that I am actually obsessed with panic? Maybe it's just that I feel it is the strongest focus of my life right now, that so much else has been taken away by this illness and so this is what I have left. I feel like the past year and a half, and especially the past 2 months during the process of withdrawing from school and having SEVERE attacks daily attacks with major anxiety all day, has been the absolute worst nightmare of my life. So why do I obsess about it so much! Maybe this sounds incredibly stupid, I don't know. Does anyone else feel they do this? It's probably more common in us housebound agoraphobics because we don't have a whole lot else we can do at this point. I feel like maybe if I hadn't withdrawn from school, maybe I never would have gotten to this point. Coincidentally, I became housebound just 4 days after withdrawing.
Any thoughts?
Sarah
